How many people go through life not really enjoying where they are or what they are doing? The excuses are there lining every cage in which we are entrapped in. "I need to pay off my debts, I need health insurance, I need to save for retirement, blah blah blah, blah blah." I'm through engulfing myself in these petty thoughts anymore. Yes, I want to be debt free and yes I am worried about my future but seriously, I am only 24 years old and I want to enjoy my life, not worry myself to death.
Did I think to myself that at 24 I would be working in a crappy job monitoring alarms right out of college, living with a friends parents until I could get a place of my own? Hell no! I thought, in my romanticized notion of small town life and love, that I would be married at 22 and have my first baby by the time I was 24. Married? Hah! I don't even have enough expierence in romantic relationships under my belt to qualify!
Life is unpredictable and that is the beauty of it. But I am finding that I am starting to vernture down a path that is predictable and boring, a path that one gets comfortable and starts collecting cats and rocking chairs. No-o-o thanks cat lady! I want to be free of this life I'm leading, I want to be free of Missouri and the shell that I am right now.
I am a fun and fancy free person. I have a wonderful personality full of quirks. I am tall and I would not trade it for the world. I love myself and my family. I am curious about what is on the other side of the former Iron Curtain. I want to see what I only see in textbooks and on the travel channel. I want to expierence life and all that it has to offer. I want what I want and I want it now. I have to take what I want because I don't have a fairy godmother who shows up with the pumkin and slippers.
It's only me, Erica, vs. the World. Let me tell you, I'm going to win. You can bet the farm on it.
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