Signs of Growing Up

Growing up is one of the hardest things that I've had to do thus far. It really is a mindset, a collective thought that must be pondered, a mental breakdown about who you are and why you are the way you are. Though you yourself are mostly responsible for the growing up, the people, places and experiences that you have encountered play a large role.

There are many different types of growing up. There are those who still hold onto the familiar and secure, some who explore and have a nose for trouble, some that keep their imagination and childlike curiosity, and others, who just want to remain dependent. It's not a Peter Pan complex so don't go confusing it. Growing up is something that we all have to face, some just choose to face it head on and others run away from it.

I know that I have grown so much in my twenties already. Heck, 22 onward has shaped me into the person that I am today. I don't want to grow up all the way but I am proud of who I am becoming. Yes there are things that I want to work on but I will get there with time.

I guess what started me on this path of pondering was finding out that the "Best/Greatest Relationship" guy that I dated a few years ago just got engaged. Why do people my age get engaged and have babies? Am I just lagging behind lol? Sheesh, I've said it before and I'll say it again, I can't imagine being a wifey or a momma. Oh, I know why I can't be either; I'm waaayyyy to selfish for it. See, I'm grown up enough. I can see my selfishness for what it's worth.

I just want to state for the record that I was still holding out hope that he would still be available when I got out of my selfish phase. Oh well. I'll just have to catch him on the other side of his divorce, lol! And no I am not joking, he was really that great.

"We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?"

-Meredith Grey